Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Artistically took :)

WEST huddle!

Shepherding fun!

Guess what I saw when I went to shepherd eugene that day!!!

WHAHAHA!!! "GONG-GONG $4 per plate" ~!!

Oh my, people nowadays must be deprived of money...they're selling their grandpas at $4 per plate! I nearly laughed my tummy upside down when I saw this.

Okay, I know its kinda stupid, but come on...REEEELLAAAAAAXXX and LAUGH out yeah???HAHAHA! I was laughing out loud 9.50am in the morning at the bukit gombak market. I think God's really creative man. A word was created to have two extreme meanings-grandpa(chinese) and food(malay or indian). God, you're soooooooooo creative:)!!

Now I've got a new thing to praise God for :) My Creator King.

This is for you, father:)

MID-AUTUMN CAREGROUP :D

Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Feed my lambs

Jesus Reinstates Peter

When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?"
"Yes, Lord," he said, " you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."


Above is an excerpt from the bible, if you happen to know, from John 21:15. Wow, such simple words Jesus said and yet it meant so much in depth. Not long ago, Daniel and Gideon preached on the Firm Foundation series whereby they, in the teaching itself, quoted this verse from the bible and said how important these 3 simple words are.

Feed my lambs.

And guess what? A few days later I was doing just the same as what Jesus said before He left, feed His lambs/sheep, in the literal way.

Two days back I went with my sheep - kenny aka jethro to evangelise in our school ground itself. We met immediately after our paper in the morning, settled some caregroup planning issues, and went straight to survey on the young secondary 1s and 2s after school. As we were in the midst of our preliminary examination, we could not stay too long (we have to study to glorify God too right?:D ), so we prayed together that in the short 30minutes itself, we would be able to make a great impact in God's kingdom.

Soon, thirty minutes passed(Evangelism was great by the way! Gathered quite a few contacts) and we went back to the designated spot we planned to meet after that. As I sat down at the canteen chair, I looked around but saw no signs of Him. Then, from the right hand side corner, a tall and scrawny figure appeared from behind the walls. Swaying in much discomfort, he slowly made his way here. Instantly, I dashed forward to ask him what happened. He then spoke in a soft voice (uncommon for TALKATIVE him), "I feel really weak and hungry. I feel very faint too."

Without delay, I ushered him to a nearby canteen table and ran off to the Western stall to buy a plate full of rice and meat etc. a piece of most of the food on display, and hurried off back to the table. As usual, he was shocked and wanted to pay me for what I had bought. Howver I just smiled, "Hey, rejecting blessing is a sin. What's more you don't get it all the time. Just eat, it's your reward for working so hard :)"

Wow! I can't believe I did that. For me, money had been really important to me as I did not have much. However, I was really awed by how God's compassion moved in me to want to love and give my sheep the best that at that point of time. I had attained the virtue of being selfless, gradually, in God. :)

Then the next day, I went to meet nigel, my new sheep, for our first ever shepherding session! We met at the left column at the canteen that afternoon. Then,I left him to sit there with the company of tianli, while I went to fetch the surprise I planned for him the previous night. I went to the Japanese food stall and ordered Unagi rice and chicken wings. Then I went to the drinks store to buy a bottle of apple aloe vera. Gleaming in delight, I walked back to the table and shocked him with the surprise I had in my hands.

To my surprise, he was more stunned than I expected. He then thank me many times and went on eating the food heartily. Wow, it just warmed my heart so much when I see my efforts being appreciated by someone else yeah-my dear sheep in exact. :) All of a sudden, the selfish thought of keeping the money to myself disappeared once again. I experienced the joy of giving in it's full extent, the second time in the week itself:)

Daddy, I can never say enough about how you always awe me with simple things. Now I know why you said feed your lambs before you went. Wow...It's so meaningful that it'll never be a chore for me yeah? Feeding your lambs are such joyous and enjoyable experiences that I hope to do it every single day! And I am sure that as I give my best to steward the limited finance I have, you'll supply me even much much more. Thank you Daddy, you just never fail to make me smile even in my darkest days. :)

You're my Lord, My Jehovah Jireh. My Provider.:)

Sunday, September 07, 2008
The nail.

Ouch....Now, I think I know 0.1% of how Jesus felt when He was nailed on the cross. He must have yelled in His heart a million times more than I did, must have squinted His eyes a zillion times smaller than I did when the nail was pounded into His hands and must have teared a gazillion times more than I did, deep in His heart.

I had a mini "operation" today with my skin cutter(or is there another name for it?), my handy-dandy toilet paper roll, my golden-glazed safety pin(which was much distorted and twisted after it- I threw it away) and my dear burnol cream(without it I would be bleeding like???I CAN'T IMAGINE THAT..). Hmmm...it's not exactly nice for me to describe it explicitly yeah? In simple words, I cut some skin, blood oozed out, pus came out. Wiping, cutting, wiping, cutting...Basically it was that. Sounded easy? Think twice. The pus was really deep, that you really had to cut SOME skin(a fair bit of amount) to be able to squeeze the pus out.(Ahh...don't ask me where...I don't feel like talking about it anymore..)

However, thank God I was able to survive through that ordeal :) I was really happy that the pus was out! Although it left some really ugly "pit-holes", strained my neck quite a bit and was tremendously hurting(IT WAS, TRUST ME), I felt that it was all worthwhile! :) I left the "battleground" feeling victorious:) Through that, God seemed to want me to learn something. Sort of like "Whatever you do, there would be an everlasting impact"(just like how all the cutting left an ugly wound).

Not much of a wise philosophy, but yet really fundamental. Just like how fire would cause a burn/scar on someone, whatever we do has an everlasting impact. May it be our feelings, for example when we are angry and we blow our top, we leave an impact on people. Should it be fear, hate, disappointment, we still leave an impact. And that impact will stay as a fact in the impression of us in others' eyes. A fact that they use to pinpoint you when you had done something wrong twice.

"Hey, that...did it again!"
"Yeah! He did it ....months ago too! He's atrocious!"

Even if you changed for the better...

"Wow, he is such a kind soul, he .... to the ... So young yet having such a caring heart. Such a rare find..."
"Nah, we don't even know if it is real. .... months ago, he did ....! Think about it, how can he be real?"

What a issue to ponder about yeah? Are we supposed to be giving them a new chance or should we just assume right away that ... is still the same old person?

You see people? This is what we usually have in mind. This shows that what people do does have an everlasting impact on someone else.

So, my advice would be that from now on, be wise in whatever you do. Think not only about your feelings, think about people around you, think in God's perspective. Make the right decision, do the right thing, influence with the right influence - Godly influence. God died on the cross and he made an everlasting impact, even till now. And I'm sure all people can tesitfy that He made the best decision ever. Let's grow to be more like God yeah? Grow to be Godly people and have Godly influence!

I want to learn to love you more, be like you more...My Dear Lord in Heaven.

PS: It's sterilizing equipments time! Pouring hot water on cutter~

Thursday, September 04, 2008
Retreat :D