Sunday, September 07, 2008
The nail.

Ouch....Now, I think I know 0.1% of how Jesus felt when He was nailed on the cross. He must have yelled in His heart a million times more than I did, must have squinted His eyes a zillion times smaller than I did when the nail was pounded into His hands and must have teared a gazillion times more than I did, deep in His heart.

I had a mini "operation" today with my skin cutter(or is there another name for it?), my handy-dandy toilet paper roll, my golden-glazed safety pin(which was much distorted and twisted after it- I threw it away) and my dear burnol cream(without it I would be bleeding like???I CAN'T IMAGINE THAT..). Hmmm...it's not exactly nice for me to describe it explicitly yeah? In simple words, I cut some skin, blood oozed out, pus came out. Wiping, cutting, wiping, cutting...Basically it was that. Sounded easy? Think twice. The pus was really deep, that you really had to cut SOME skin(a fair bit of amount) to be able to squeeze the pus out.(Ahh...don't ask me where...I don't feel like talking about it anymore..)

However, thank God I was able to survive through that ordeal :) I was really happy that the pus was out! Although it left some really ugly "pit-holes", strained my neck quite a bit and was tremendously hurting(IT WAS, TRUST ME), I felt that it was all worthwhile! :) I left the "battleground" feeling victorious:) Through that, God seemed to want me to learn something. Sort of like "Whatever you do, there would be an everlasting impact"(just like how all the cutting left an ugly wound).

Not much of a wise philosophy, but yet really fundamental. Just like how fire would cause a burn/scar on someone, whatever we do has an everlasting impact. May it be our feelings, for example when we are angry and we blow our top, we leave an impact on people. Should it be fear, hate, disappointment, we still leave an impact. And that impact will stay as a fact in the impression of us in others' eyes. A fact that they use to pinpoint you when you had done something wrong twice.

"Hey, that...did it again!"
"Yeah! He did it ....months ago too! He's atrocious!"

Even if you changed for the better...

"Wow, he is such a kind soul, he .... to the ... So young yet having such a caring heart. Such a rare find..."
"Nah, we don't even know if it is real. .... months ago, he did ....! Think about it, how can he be real?"

What a issue to ponder about yeah? Are we supposed to be giving them a new chance or should we just assume right away that ... is still the same old person?

You see people? This is what we usually have in mind. This shows that what people do does have an everlasting impact on someone else.

So, my advice would be that from now on, be wise in whatever you do. Think not only about your feelings, think about people around you, think in God's perspective. Make the right decision, do the right thing, influence with the right influence - Godly influence. God died on the cross and he made an everlasting impact, even till now. And I'm sure all people can tesitfy that He made the best decision ever. Let's grow to be more like God yeah? Grow to be Godly people and have Godly influence!

I want to learn to love you more, be like you more...My Dear Lord in Heaven.

PS: It's sterilizing equipments time! Pouring hot water on cutter~